some stories to share…

J & Howl - Perhaps Love (translated)

I can’t remember exactly when it was
That my mind began to fill up with thoughts of you.
It all began with just one or two thoughts,
But as each day went by, there were more, and I am confused.
I keep telling you that it’s nothing important
But even that feels awkward.
Is this love? Do you feel the same?
My heart keeps telling me that I’m in love with you.
My heart is shouting to the world that I’m in love with you.
Why have I only heard it now?
The voice keeps telling me that I have finally found love.

I want to tell you how I feel,
But you can probably feel the way I feel.
I am already a part of you as you are a part of me.
We may have already become a part of each other.
Is this love? Do you feel the same?
My heart keeps telling me that I’m in love with you.
My heart is shouting to the world that I’m in love with you.
Why have I only heard it now?
The voice keeps telling me that I have finally found love.

When I think back,
There were so many moments
When I felt my heart was about to burst.
It’s a little late, but I’ll try my best.
I want to be with you. I only want us to share good memories.
Please don’t leave me.
I don’t want us to be apart, even for a moment.
I love you so much.

makasih ya ♥, udah nyemangatin terus sampek akhirnya udah selese defense-nya.
makasih ya ♥, udah nenangin hati ini pas lagi panik-paniknya sebelum masuk ruang ujian dan duduk di hot seat.
makasih ya ♥, buat sms pagi itu, meskipun sebelum masuk ujian cuma sempet baca beberapa baris pertama *nyesel, padahal baris-baris yang dibawah kan konyol gitu… mestinya bisa bikin otot-otot muka kendor sebelum tegang ‘dibantai’*
makasih ya ♥, for just being there…

dear mr. A,

kangen. hehe, entah kenapa tiba2 kangen aja. will we have a chance to go out like we had before? maybe you can give me a boost to ‘end-up’ my damn lovely theses! just like before,,

so much things happened lately. got to learn that damn multivariate analysis, and end up at a bizarre things called multinomial blablablaaahh. get in touch with mathematical problems, geez i was only a social science student at high school. thanks god, i can managed it. got the analysis done. but other problem revealed, the analysis result doesn’t suitable with my research background. got to do more works. in fact, re-works! hopefully, i can finish it within this weekend and submit the final draft to my supervisor on monday (he really has to give me some time to discuss about my theses seriously) oh my God, i really need to do the defense before christmas!!!

my mom was ill last week so i have to take care of her, but she’s better now. so i can spend more time with my theses, unfortunately i’m kind of loosing my spirit and gaining anxiety about it.

i think i have an obsessive compulsive disorder, in a medium level… i become (or may be i am) perfectionist with my theses, i can not resist dirt, i wash my hand everytime i touch something, even if the things is not dirty, due to this habit my hand skin is dry, gotta put some lotion on it. last night, i can not concentrate on my theses, my heart beated faster and i got dizzy and nauseous.

even few bad things happened to me, i got a good ones as well.

finally, i got in touch with Lily. She’s got a cellphone, so i can reach her everytime i want. I called her 2 days ago, too bad i got only 10k at my ‘fren’ credit, i only had 5 minutes to talk to her before suddenly beep beep beep… thanks to fren - mobile 8 for the cheap international call (thru VoIp) Starone - indosat has better voice quality, and easier connection (with fren, got to dials several times before i got connected) but a bit pricey.

it’s raining here in Jogja. Rainy season be come in a couple weeks i think.

got a big pack of durian yummy

got better in cooking dishes for my self today i made a serabi telor yesterday i cooked ‘ayam kuluyuk’, and ‘cah sawi putih’ and few days ago i cooked ‘bok coy cah saos tiram’

i think i’ll make another lasagna tomorrow. wanna taste my lasagna ?

ok, i’m very sleepy. i’ll go to bed. good nite mr. a, write to you later…